Troubled singer Sinéad O'Connor
released a new Facebook video where she said she's depressed, suicidal and
living in a motel in New Jersey.
In the video, a teary Sinéad
details her current state of affairs, saying: "I'm all by myself. And
there's absolutely nobody in my life except my doctor, my psychiatrist - the
sweetest man on earth, who says I'm his hero - and that's about the only
f******* thing keeping me alive at the moment, the fact that I'm his bloody
hero, and that's kind of pathetic."
Sitting on the bed of
the room in Hackensack, the mother-of-four weeps through much of the video as
she reveals she's suffering from three mental illnesses. O'Connor was diagnosed
with bipolar disorder more than a decade ago.
The "Nothing Compares 2
U" singer said: "Mental illness, it's like drugs," she said. She
added that it doesn't care who you are and the stigma resulting thereof is
worse.
"Suddenly all the people that
are supposed to be loving you and taking care of you are treating you like
s***... and then when you're angry or you're hurt because they're doing it,
it's like a witch hunt."
She went on to add: "The
people who suffer from mental illness are the most vulnerable people on earth.
We can't take of ourselves."
Sinéad said she made the video for
others who are mentally ill. She said she is fighting to stay alive because
"I love the people that are doing this to me. I'm not staying alive for
me. If it was for me, I'd be gone."
She added: "If it was just for
me I'd be gone. Straight away back to my mum... because I've walked this earth
alone for two years now as punishment for being mentally f***ing ill and
getting angry that no one would f***ing take care of me.
"I'm a 5ft 4in little f***ing
woman wandering the world for two years by myself."
She said in the video that she's
"begging, begging, begging, begging, begging to be brought home."
Sinéad has been going through
depression for a while now and has made several attempts on her life. In
December 2015, she wrote a suicide note in which she says she intentionally
overdosed on pills.
She wrote: "The last two
nights have finished me off. I have taken an overdose. There is no other way to
get respect. I am not at home, I'm at a hotel, somewhere in Ireland, under
another name. There is only so much a woman can be expected to bear. After everything
I've been put through, and been forced to go through alone, they wouldn't know
if I was dead until weeks from now."
She was found alive a few days
later and was hospitalized. While in hospital, she begged her estranged
children to come visit her in the hospital, children whom she had previously
said were "dead to me."
In May 2016, Chicago police issue
an alert deeming Sinead "missing, suicidal" after she took off on a
motorized Raleigh-brand bicycle and didn't return. Around the same time, she posted
strange messages on social media. On May 16, she was found safe.
Guests staying at the same New
Jersey motel as O'Connor have expressed shock that someone like her will be
staying in a place like that and not at a five-star hotel. A woman staying at
the motel told Page Six that O'Connor had been staying there for a week.
"She had a hospital band on
her wrist," the woman said. She added that O'Connor kept to herself but
"left her door wide open all week except at night" and would often go
to the Pepsi machine. She said the first time she saw the Irish singer she told
her boyfriend: "That looks like an old Sinead O'Connor."
Immediately O'Connor posted the
video, the footage immediately sparked fear among her fans.
One wrote: "To Sinead's kids
get over and help your mother, she is crying out for you all, forget what has
happened and forgive, keep forgiving her until you get over there and give her
a hug."
See the emotional video shot by
O'Connor below.
This is so painful.
She's been in therapy for years, yet had this huge public meltdown.
Time to turn to God.
In other news, she has always tilted towards depression from the get-go.
If your inspiration is pain, loneliness, sad songs et al, you will end up living the part....
More often than not, life imitates art...
Get better, Sinead.
The world needs you around.

1 comment:
eeyah so sad. i used to be a great fan of hers
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